Shedding layers of belief!

We can’t solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them.”

~ Albert Einstein

As much as I love writing, as therapeutic as it feels, I sometimes run away from it. Reading the quote above  I finally realized today that I have to apply the same thinking, in order to transform my life..in many areas.

The last few weeks I have focused more on healing myself and along the way I became my own best friend.  I stumbled my way through the first few days judging myself way too much.  
I dropped much judgment and began to alter my self-view from “broken” to “healing” to ‘naturally powerful”.  I soon realized the relationship I now deeply desired to have was a soulful connection with myself.

I experienced my first rebirth when I finally, finally listened to my intuition and heart’s calling above my fear and decided to move on in my new life with disabilities.

It was one of the hardest decisions I had ever made.  I was still in love with my old life.  Before me lay a land of nothing but change, which was appears very so scary.  
I didn’t know who I was becoming.

But my gut wouldn’t let it go, and I took the biggest leap of faith ever.  And since then life has been soaring.  Though I was experiencing deep pain inside me to let go off many things, it was coupled with the relief of knowing that I was doing the right thing. Now I am in the process of healing myself and figuring out what I really want.

Since I had become my own best friend,  I learned how to say “no”.  I learned how to let myself experiment with relating with everything that life offers each moment.  I learned how to envision and feel what I really wanted.

I am becoming hopeful.  Now as allow my brain to be filled with real stories of how people have overcome hurdles and lived the life they wanted, my hope is turning into knowing. I knew how happy I would feel… because I was already feeling those things....by shedding beliefs about my self-worth, about what the world could provide, about how my life could and should look like.. I found it.

This is unlike anything I have ever experienced.

Somewhere during all this, I began to question where I wanted to go next in life and why. The “why’ is extremely important for me because I wanted to ensure fear was not the driving force behind the route I wanted to take next in life.  But the truth - It was. Or rather, it was my limiting beliefs.  I had to expand what I thought was possible and what I felt I could have.

Possibility proceeds reality...is it not?

I applied this framework and it in turn is helping me to transform my uncomfortable relationships and pangs of fear of imperfection.  
I believe due to my efforts in the last few weeks I no longer mirror the Deepthi that had returned home after my plasma exchange at AIIMS.  
I have shed many, many layers of limiting and weighty beliefs.  I am feeling lighter, happier, and much, much more powerful and sure of myself.  My life now does have  have a purpose.  
And each day, I wake up so happy to face my life... to befriend it..to conquer it with confidence and optimism.

This mental shift feels more like a situation of deep instability solidified into pure gold.

It’s AWESOME.

All of it, all of it catalyzed by love and a shedding of skins. I aim to free myself of “should’s”.  When I said I plan on living an amazing life… I meant it.  This is how.

I have become my own best friend.  And the world?  It’s holding my hands, too.