Better Things Are Coming

Our life so very much resembles the ocean. Just like the rough waters and calm tides our life too is full of transitions and we somehow always end up going through this with pure uncertainty. 

For example I thought my life would be different a year ago today.  Then again, I also believe that all the best things that I believe is going to happen at a certain point in time, never happen when I believe them to, but instead when the Universe believes the time has come. 

Sure, I wish some things were different and I will be very honest in the fact that now I have been focusing on what I do not want in my life as opposed to what I want. 

Is it not true that what we continuously think about begins to manifest in our every day lives? My thoughts are coming from a sense of lack and my focus has been on how unfair things seem to be therefore I am bringing more of what I do not what into my life. 

Accept it, we all get into ruts at times and I know better things are coming.  There are times in our lives when we must not only change our thoughts but our actions as well. 

Continuing to do the same thing while expecting a different result....I think that is how insanity us defined.  I used to truly hate myself because of my incurable chronic illness.

I no longer hate myself.  There are times I hate certain aspects in my life but now I am proud of myself.  I have started telling myself: it is just a bad day, week, or month: NOT A BAD LIFE. 
My mom in law once told me: “Everything changes Molu, nothing stays the same.  Trust the process.”  I think of that quote daily.

Chronic Illness and the pain truly did steal almost six months of my life because it dominated everything I thought and everything I did.  The reason I am able to somehow manage it now is because I no longer want pain or disability to be the focus of my miserable existence. 

Yes, I have extremely difficult days but because I chose to stop focusing on pain and my inabilities, I began to actually live as opposed to survive.  Our thoughts become our reality.  My Chronic pain and inabilities to do stuff is always there but now I have started practicing to train my brain to bring my thoughts away from my miserabilties.

  No, things are not how I imagined them to be or prayed for them to be but that is out of my control.  I must choose more positive thoughts and focus on what I do have and trust the journey of my life. 
Why obsess over what I now believe will never happen? 
I am, as we all know is a work in progress.  I will continue to do what I know is right for myself and my family.  I will continue to manage my pain and illness the best I can and get through the changes in my life and I will start doing things that make my soul happy. 
Though late I have realized that I had gotten so wrapped up in taking care of everything outside of myself that now I have stopped to take care of my body and soul , in a way that it deserves and needs. 
We must take care of ourselves or we will be no use to the people we love.  We must do the things that make our soul happy and for me that is writing, reading, and doing things for my inner child.

“People will love you.  People will hate you and none of it will have anything to do with you.”

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