The white flower bud!

Have you ever attempted to hold your anxiety,
and live on the edge with ambiguity,
or immensely felt the desire to flee
from the smog of uncertainty?

Awaiting to be found I saw a white flower bud
Amidst the unheralded array of green leafy bed
Curiously I asked my granny, "Do you know which flower this will be?
She said smilingly, "Why don't you wait and see?"

Thereafter watching the little bud thrive and grow,
I realised the my new little friend was teaching me how to HOPE!

If I knew what it would blossom into it would have brought me closer to 'certainty',
Which the modern world is now addicted to,
But no... I prefer enjoying awaiting the unknown in ambiguity!

What..how.. where..when.. will it happen?
this unquantifiable feel keeps the jar of anxiety open, 
So to hope you need the audacity and resolution,
to fearlessly face and appreciate the cloud of the unknown!

Every now and then either like an ear-piercing yawp with echoes
or like weak docile whispers,
Hope is offering prayers when we have lost our way and 
the sudden spurt of fresh air
when the burden of the society is taking your breath away!

Hope is watering the tiny seed,
planted within the earth so deep,
Hope is the sun awaiting for the seed to sprout,
so that it could cuddle it in its warmth before it blooms out!

Hope is believing that there are good things out there,
and life is worth living even if it is bare!

Hope is not losing heart and getting through with a smile,
The difficult moments of life that keep popping every short while!

Hope is a choice to face any adversity,
even if life is filled with confusion and uncertainty!

Hope teaches us to look into the eyes of our fears and dubiousness,
To believe that life isn't difficult though you very well know.. IT IS!

Hope teaches you to be honest with yourself,
And go soaring past your limitations and proving yourself!

Hope is acknowledging your constraints and ailments,
but believing firmly and striving to have your dreams reach fulfilment.

Just as my white flower bud wasn't visible in the green leafy bed,
Amidst diagnosis and health challenges hope for me was difficult to be found!

But now I am an active participant in my own simple unique life,
staying away from toxic people who sap  out the zen from my smile!
I am now surrounded by my chosen few  who love me and make me feel precious as a drop of dew!

The white flower bud has softly taught me,
to let the thoughts of my past and future go free,
to live patiently and mindfully in the present,
I now enjoy life's each and every moment!

Having begun my journey I have met angels on earth, so many,
making my life's expedition meaningful is their blissful and enlightening company.

Treading on this road of hope with such blessed souls
I now am sure..I AM NOT ALONE!